Dear Nyi, I was doing very good during the interview. My Life is in a total chaos right now. Even if I can have the job offer, this path will be too way difficult for me. It’s very far away from the mainland. They told me about the difficulties in NAGA area. But you know what, I decided to go there. I will attend my class for this whole month and I will prepare my GRE and TOEFL while I am working. Can’t help. I shouldn’t be like this right now, I would rather go and seek all the adventures in all those remote areas. If possible I will join all the war zones and conflict zones later. My life should be like this. Total carefree and not acting like a coward who is afraid to lose someone. It’s God’s plan. I dunt want to blame to me and to you anymore. You should know, I will take responsibility for all the words I said. The one who has many sacrifices is the one who hurts the most because only they can know the value of what they gave them to someone they trea
Dear Nyi, Now my heart even knows the time. At the right time, it becomes so empty and so tight. Nyi, I am now becoming calmer than the other days, but still, I miss you a lot. Although I suffer from this feeling like I am falling into the black hole, I think I am doing good. I know you ignore my messages intentionally. It would be better for me too. I should not long for you this bad. I have to do other things, I have to go into the outer world and face the reality. By the way Nyi, I got up early this morning for my GRE and TOEFL class, it took me one and a half hour to reach there. Sayar seems nice and decent, and way of his teaching is really good. It is 2 hour longed one by one session. Maths and English and all about the essay writing. I will be sure to have great scores on these exams. I will try my best. A part of me is with you and I won’t destroy your image and love on me. I promise not to do anything that will make your image bad. I love you.